User blog:Eilonwyn/Inactivity...

It has come to my attention that some folk were growing...frustrated with my lack of good responses over the past few days.

I know this is gonna be childish but...

Do I not deserve a little bit of a break? Everyday since I started RotK a couple of months ago I've been staying up until nearly 4 in the morning every. Single. Day. Trying to make everyone feel included, even when I have work at 10 in the morning. I did that. I exhausted myself for you lot.

Would any of your posts be super descriptive when you've spent 12 hours on your feet the day before your holiday getting moaned at for missing one scrap of food when sweeping? I'd love to see that.

So yesterday, I took a step back and spent time with a really great guy whom I love, just to clear my head and, frankly for some variety. It was a great day, and I went to bed happy and refreshed, ready to get back to it and actually capatilise on my plans. Cause you know, shockingly enough, I actually had some to keep the thing going beyond this apparent "deadline" I had of the 20th, which was all wrong. I wanted to end it at 20 parts if we could cause it's simply a nice even number...

But it's fine, people get frustrated and bitter and sick of it and just leave. I've felt that myself, many a time and I understand.

However, I think it is unfair when we've been stalled for entire days waiting for someone to appear for just a scant few minutes, and when she says she was busy, it's "Oh! Completely fine. Life gets in the way! We get it!" Yet when I do the same it's "OMG! MUST LEAVE! FRUSTRATION!"

Yes that was personal, and I apologise, but I just...cannot hide my own frustrations anymore.

But to think I was half assing it, or I'd lost my care for it, would be a complete and utter lie. This is my passion, you all know that more than anyone I'd hope. But even the most passionate need a rest from time to time...

So...sorry I disappointed you and sorry I probably pissed y'all off with this, but...I just felt like it had to be said.

~A rather hurt and childish King~