User blog:Sithfanjedi/An Apology

So the time has come again where I feel I need to explain myself, and it has been more prominent now than ever before.

As some of you may have recently noticed, I have been slacking considerably on this website. I have only managed to post 3-5 posts a day as of late, and my general activity on this site has gone down as well. This is because of two main things...

Job.
As some people may know, my job is defintely not a good place. It is a stressful environment with poor management, constant supervision and higher ups who barely spend any time in the store. While it has been factor as to my tiredness, my proper problem is with myself...

My Heart.
That's just it. The large and burning flame that was my passion for roleplaying is now merely a small bonfire. Countless days I've just found myself just doing other things than going on this site - this was the same person who a year ago couldn't last without this place.

I am not trying to excuse my recent activity, nor am I trying to defend myself. It is 100% my fault that it has gotten as bad as this. Some of you may have never felt the impact of it all, but I'm sure that some of you have - and those people know who they are.

I am sincerely sorry. I am sorry for holding back RP's, I am sorry for leaving people hanging for vast amounts of time and I am sorry that I have been not been doing as much as I can as a Forum Moderator.

Conclusion
After looking hard and long at what has been happening, the first steps of trying to change have been implemented. I've finally fought for smaller hours at my job, and I've been absorbing myself into as many characters and stories from fantasy stories as I can. And while the flame I once had for this place continue to be lower than what it was, I will be focusing everything into the posts I write.

So that's it: that's all I have to say. I hope not only to make it up to the people I've let down on RP's, but to the community as a Moderator.

From the Dark Side of the Force

~Sith