Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-7262318-20191114001656/@comment-24510587-20191125010221

Vander sat down on the steps up to the porch and sighed as he rubbed his hands over his face. Smith’s father had said some preposterous things in there. How come everyone seemed to disagree with his views, even though they were so clearly the right ones? Was he the only morally sound person in Skyrim?

Well, except for Kenshiv. That boy had displayed a great sense of justice and morality. And Eryna… she hadn’t been okay with how things went down by Dawnstar, either.

She’d been tainted by Quen’s ways, though. So not even she was entirely sound. And Kenshiv was Jack’s protege, which meant that she would likely taint him as well. Which left only him. The only person left with a proper conscience.

That was kind of lonely, wasn’t it? To be the only one. He had come to Skyrim to find people of like minds, but instead he had left behind the only people he knew to be morally just - the priests - and now he was all alone. No Guild, no Kenshiv and Jack, no Eryna. No Eryna. That one stung the most. It had only been a few days since he had left, but he already missed her a lot. Sure, he missed Smith and Utahsi, but not quite like he missed her. She was special to him. She was his closest friend, certainly, and he definitely still felt more for her than that. As much as he hated to admit it to himself, he couldn’t stop thinking about the moment she’d exposed herself to him. He wanted to be with her…

But that was pretty much off the table now. He was gone, she’d insisted on staying, and she probably hated his guts now for having left her behind like that. Plus, she’d probably jumped in bed with Leyt already at this point. That’s what she had mainly wanted him for. Not for a relationship, but for fornication. He’d told her he wanted to develop things, but she refused to listen. Just like everyone refused to listen.

That made him think back on what Jack had said, though. That he was too quick to give up on people. Was there truth in that? He ‘’had’’ condemned the Guild after only one altercation, he supposed. As much as his reasons for that held true, maybe his decision to leave them behind was premature. One discussion would not be enough to try and make them see the error of their ways, as Eryna had suggested. Had he stayed, he could have acted as the Guild’s conscience, trying to steer them into the right direction. He could not do that if he was not with them. The same went for Jack… and in a way, Eryna as well, he supposed.

They probably wouldn’t even want him back, though. The way those two had looked at and ignored him suggested that they were pretty mad at him, even though they had been the ones in the wrong.

Vander sighed again. This whole province and everything in it sucked.