Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-5824038-20141006193518/@comment-29458028-20141018024017

(After Louis' girlfriend died, he was in denial and thus suppressed all his emotion with logic as he knew he could not die, but repression has a price. He can't remove his emotions, only confine them. Psychology at it's finest :P)

"The blood of light, the blood beyond mortality" said Louis to himself, as he cut his palm with his sword, watching the viscous glowing white liquid trickle out. Immortal blood beyond a mortal. His healing factor soon closed the wound, as the blood evaporated. "My perfection, yet my greatest weakness."

Could destroyed Animi return? No. He remembered her from his years ago, the first and last of the Aurorans who chose to leave his Utopia, after the reconstruction.

Originally, she was meant to rule Luminem beside him, but her emotions were led astray by the mortal world she came from (Daedra Conversion as well). Emotion had led to the demise of their relationship. She made a pact with Molag Bal to take her wings, which happened. (Louis' girlfriend was daedra converted, so it was reversible)

Louis hand no choice but to kill her. The first fallen Auroran died by his hand. He was the one who killed her. Emotion destroyed their relationship, emotion led him into depression, emotion messed everything up.

Which was why emotions be damned. Louis felt a hand on his back and he saw Ada sit down beside him. While chronologically younger, she was considerably older mentally, a nice aunt who got him through his depression, albeit a very naggy, very irritating one. (He doesn't know she loves him, though.)

"What is happening to you, Louis? Why are you so despondent? Did something wrong happen?"

"Many things went wrong. My emotions came back accidentally. Now I feel like shit. I remembered her, I remember everything."

"Well, I cannot help you get over that, but please, if you really need to, there's nothing to be embarrassed about seeking help from a psychologist. We have several good ones."

"Have you never thought I tried to seek help? Nobody can help me! I am forever trapped in the circle of denial! What can anyone do? Erase the past events? Remove what happened?" shouted Louis, his face darkening even more.

"Nobody can help you because you don't let people help you."

(Kinds not so good at writing such stuff, but practice is good!)