User blog comment:Mhazard/Considering Permanent Leave/@comment-3293219-20150513154917

Mhazard, have you considered that now that you know your mistakes, that you can work on them? It's like what my favourite quote from Johnny Cash says,

"You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space."

If you think that you've done something wrong and that you feel that you've learned from these mistakes, then surely the best course of action would be to return and try to improve these things about yourself.

You can improve yourself and your own image in the community, if you feel that it is in jepardy, then you can easily rectify it by coming back and adjusting your attitude to improve. I personally have no desire to see you leave, you do contribute a lot to the wiki and are valued by a number of this community's members.

I do believe that you were right when you said that you were passionate, personally I admire any form of passion in any user and therefore I think that this would be a major loss.

If I can be honest? I was an awful editor, back on Fallout wiki and I often tip toed around the banning line myself, few people take it personally and I don't believe that it has quite the effect on the community as you think it does. I honestly thought that everyone hated me there but when I once mentioned that 'fact' in passing, everyone was incredibly confused.

If you feel that leaving is best, then I'll support that decision but don't feel obliged to leave, nobody is banned from things so that they'll leave, it's so that they'll see from their mistakes and learn from them. I think that you've dwelled on it for quite some time and therefore, I think that you have learned from it.

Either way, don't be so harsh on yourself, okay? :)