User blog:Psychomantis108/An apology by Razielplaysskyrim

Razielplaysskyrim has sent this letter of apology over steam to various individual members of the community and the community as a whole. He asked me to post it on his behalf, after checking it I figured that I may as well.

Message
Hi guys, it's Raz (Josh). I'm not doing this for any other reason than that I felt I should. This is my apology. I'm really sorry for the way I was. It's weird how different I've been online than normal. Actually, it's not. My life was screwed up and I lashed out at all of you. I was really rude and obnoxious, now that I look back on it was just a defense. I insulted people and was generally a Sacmp.

I took accounts because I was banned for just reasons. I was misguided and totally out of my mind. I wish it had never happened but it did, and for that I will be eternally grateful. I was like that mainly as a way to vent which was soooo wrong. I was snappy and defensive about me IRL. I bit people's heads off for being curious. I lost any shred of respect I had. I realise now that what I did was really horrible.

I only kept going because I was afraid to face what I'd done. I'd rather pretend everybody was out to get me than aknowledge my many faults and mistakes. You guys welcomed me onto your wiki when nobody IRL welcomed me at all. It means so much to me that you guys were so helpful, kind, and overall great people. I however ruined that and I'm not asking for forgiveness but I'd rather write this than keep it bottled up like a bipolar weirdo. So in the end, I screwed everything up and I'm sorry. I took the name Raz way too seriously I turned into my character and he messed it all up.I ruined my online utopia and it's all my fault and nobody else's.

I'm sorry Psycho for disrespecting you and acting like you were doing something wrong. You were a great admin who showed me more slack than I deserved. Sunny, you never professed undying love for me but you, knowing how I was, treated me like anybody else. To those I accuse of various things, sorry. I was wrong and I knew it.I was afraid of people so I pushed EVERYBODY away.

To all the rest of you who's lives I interfered with I'm sorry. I screwed up big time and it's like, the 4th biggest mistake in my very short life.