Board Thread:Roleplaying/@comment-3293219-20160307001231/@comment-24123288-20160307183825

There were a few scrawled out, tear stained pages and he had to arrange them a little, but Jude did finally get something coherent but still rambling and disjointed at the same time...

"Jude, 

Since you gave me my letter, I figured it is best I put my own feelings down here instead of creeping you out and crying in front of everyone by actually talking properly...

''You're being silly you know that? Running away and leaving me, leaving us alone is...the most insane thing I have ever heard, and I've hung out with Nissa, so I know my share of crazy. ''

''Look, I keep your nightmares away right? So I wonder if you'd ever do the same for me. When Faldras was dead...you...well you took the pain away. For the moments I was awake, I was glad to spend them beside you. The way you get through life, despite all that's happened, how you make me happy, when it really should be me focusing on you... ''

''You're a great man, you know that? I know saving Faldras and taking on that pain, the same pain you feel, made you angry. I hurt you and I understand why you've left me, but it really stings. I need you more than I realise and I hope you understand that. ''

''You and Faldras are the best men in the world and if one of you are unhappy, I am unhappy, so please do your best to keep that amazing, gorgeous smile of yours on your pretty face. I want to see joy, not the angry mask you show everyone else. If I can see just a little bit of that, I will be content with your decision.''

''Speaking of decisions, I've made one of my own. My 'heroics', my...recklessness, has caused a lot of pain for a lot of people. Not just within our group, but out in the world as well. All I think about right now, apart from you and the Bosmer, is how many people have died because of me getting in the way. Elsewyr with the Hunter, Meeting you, and that Village back on the border. Heroism just...isn't my thing I guess, so I'm going to hang up my sword and leave in the next city. I was a pretty dab hand with that paste so maybe an Alchemist could take me on...''

''I'll work it out. Always do. ''

''Just...don't tell Faldras, since he'll worry his head off. He needs to continue this journey, and fight his fears. I've realised I just can't do it all for him, so please, stay with them and look out for him for me, yeah? ''

''I heard you are going with Gabriel, stay safe. Come back to us. Back to me, cause Jude,''

I love you too..

Miri x

''P.S. I finally came up with a little poem of my own. It is nothing compared to your work and is really short, so don't laugh, but here you go:''

I'll hide my tears when I say your name,

But the pain in my heart will still be the same.

Although I'll smile and seem carefree,

<p style="font-weight:normal;font-size:14px;line-height:22px;margin-bottom:0px!important;">There will be no-one who will miss you,

<p style="font-weight:normal;font-size:14px;line-height:22px;margin-bottom:0px!important;">More than me.